This week I had plenty of wins, with just a couple losses. On Saturday I had a little breakdown because I felt like I can’t do anything right. I was able to not let this breakdown turn into a binge. Sunday through Wednesday I did really well. I skipped wine on Monday and on Tuesday and Wednesday I only drank one glass.
Now for the losses…I went back to my fear of waste when I was making cookies. I licked the bowl and spoon instead of allowing it to go to waste. I also had a snack on Sunday even though I wasn’t hungry. Thursday I went off the rails completely…
On Thursday I started off good with a protein shake for breakfast, juice for a snack, and a smoothie for lunch. I got about an hour and a half workout in. After lunch I noticed my cat made a really hard to clean mess and I went off the rails. I started with wine, then ate a couple cookies and 3 of the desserts I made. I then ordered chips and queso and an extra strong margarita. I ate the chips and queso uncontrollably. I also ate some popcorn later even though I wasn’t hungry.
Friday I got back on track. I felt refreshed and ready to start a new day with healthy choices. I skipped breakfast and had a smoothie for lunch. Then I had juice and an apple with cookie butter. For dinner I had a small portion of hibachi then went overboard with 2 cookies and a Reese’s egg. At least I didn’t have much to eat the rest of the day. I am going to try to refresh this weekend with plenty of juice.
After I have a day with binges I find it helpful to list everything I ate that day. Most of the time I find my binges aren’t as bad as I thought. If they were then it really shows me how much I ate. When I ate less than expected I find it makes it easier to forgive myself. I’m looking forward to next week with hope and positivity.
One thing I want to work on is not being so obsessed with meal planning. I find myself planning ahead too far in advance when it comes to food. I don’t want to be so food focused. It’s not good for me.