I‘ve realized that when I eat, I eat very quickly. Before I’ve even finished chewing the first bite I am already shoving the next bite of food into my mouth. Coming to this realization has made me ask myself: Why am I in a hurry? It’s OK to eat quickly if I have a limited time to eat the food. Most of the time, however, I am not in a hurry when I am eating. So why do I do this? I think it comes from when I was a child. My dad would always finish his meal really quickly, so I wanted to be just like him and finish my meal quickly. I also feel like I don’t want to burden others by eating too slowly. Why should they have to wait for me to finish my meal?. With this journey I am learning that I should focus on myself. I don’t need to eat quickly to make sure I am not a burden to others.
Another thing I realized about my eating is that I eat like I’m never going to eat again. A lot of times I will eat sweets when I am not even hungry. I think I do this because I have a big fear of missing out. If I don’t eat that ice cream or that cookie I will never have an indulgence again. What is going to happen if I don’t get to try that food? Nothing. A lot of times when I am eating out with people, even if it’s at a place that I probably will never go back to again, I like to try the food of the people I’m out with. Even if it’s a basic burger or mashed potatoes, I still want to try it. I am working on focusing on what I am eating in the moment. It would be different if I plan on going back to that place and want to try what they had next time, but most of the time that’s not the case.
If I’m shoveling food into my mouth at a quick pace, how am I supposed to even taste it. My initial thought on this is that I eat that quickly because if I eat fast enough I won’t have any time to stop myself. However, what’s the point of eating that quickly if I can’t even taste the food that should be giving me happiness. I have been thinking about the fact that I tend to punish myself. I was watching a show about eating disorders and they made the statement that people with eating disorders don’t treat themselves because they are punishing their bodies. I realized I don’t like to just sit around and relax or pamper myself so I wonder if I am punishing myself. I am still trying to figure out why I am punishing myself. There is no need to punish myself. Food should nourish me and indulgences should be tasted and enjoyed.
I’ve noticed that when I eat more slowly and take time to really enjoy the food I am less likely to reach for more. The slower I eat the food, the more I have time to enjoy it. I will get the same enjoyment from eating a big bite of cookie as I will from eating a small bite of cookie. So if I have more bites of a cookie because they are smaller, I am less likely to reach for a second cookie to enjoy. I have time to think about what I am eating and the enjoyment it is giving me and don’t feel the need to keep eating.
When I eat too fast I tend to eat more than I am hungry for. My food doesn’t have the time to get to my stomach and fill my stomach up if I eat it too fast. So by the time I am full I have eaten more than what I would have if I would have eaten slowly. Because of this, I feel sick because my stomach is overfilled. One of the Pure Barre instructors was talking about thinking about how you feel after you eat. I know that by eating past the point of full I do not feel good after. So that means I need to slow down my eating so I don’t eat past the point of full.
Do you struggle to slow down and enjoy your food? Comment below!