When I began my journey to wellness my main goal was to control eating binges. I made the decision to talk to a therapist about the issue and learned a lot about myself. I learned that my binging began when I moved out on my own and had to take control of my life. I thought that because nobody was in charge I could do whatever I want. I didn’t realize that being on your own is hard work. I slowly developed better eating habits as time went on, but still had random binges. Once I realized that I need to be in control I thought things would get easier, but they did not.
I am always going to need to think before I eat. Being in control of my eating habits is a lifelong struggle. Before I reach for food I need to ask myself why I am reaching for that food. Am I hungry, bored, anxious, sad? If I am hungry then it’s ok to reach for food. If not, I need to solve the issue with a way other than food.
I have made so much progress, but still feel the struggle everyday. I hoped getting on track would be easy, but it’s not. I know things will get easier, but I will still always need to think before I eat.
I am on vacation currently and I have taken some steps back, but I also have made some improvements. Any win is a win no matter how small.